magic fortune cookie say...

I got home tonight and felt like rambling on for a bit so here I am.  I got a fortune cookie with my Chinese dinner tonight.  My fortune said something like "you and your spouse will have a long happy relationship". How great!  If only fortune cookies were like fairy Godmothers and because it was said it shall be done.  While I do expect that my amazing husband and I will have an eternal happy relationship I don't think it will be because of some magic fortune, but rather a lot of hard work from both of us. I am headed into week three of David being gone.  It's still not easy even though we have done this a few times now.  Every time we go through it, it surprises me that its all the little things that I miss the most.  Having someone to comment to about the show that's on TV, having someone to eat dinner with, having someone to laugh with about the day.  I guess it all comes down to sharing. Life is sad when there's no sharing.  Friends are nice (though I don't have many of those in San Diego) but no one can be him, no one can be my best friend like he is.  That just may be the secret to marriage. Friendship. How many people forget that once upon time their spouse was their best friend.  That's why they married them. And that is where the romance comes from.  I hope that 50 years and a few kids down the road that David and I both still share the same playful, warm, comforting friendship that we have shared for the past few years.  We aren't afraid to disagree.  We have before and we will in the future, but as long as we remember and respect our friendship things will always be just fine.  Its interesting maintaining our relationship over e-mail. Its not ideal for sure.  But this year its what we will have.  And next year we will probably have some other obstacle in our path.  That is just how life is. And boy is it exciting.  I don't think I would have it any other way. Maybe my next post will be less serious and more humorous.  I'll try to think of some jokes.  Oh and maybe I will learn how to post pictures :)

where we find our courage...

Ugghh... I am in the middle of the longest 2 days of my life.  And I have 15 more to go.  Yuck! I had a bit of a good thought while I was reading my scriptures today though. I was thinking I really love that we read these stories over and over so that we can act like these amazing faithful people when we are in tough situations.  I can learn to be brave and have courage from them so when I need the strength most of all it's there.  I can stay calm and put my faith in my Heavenly Father because so many have done it before me and it has worked out just fine.  Being pretty much confined to bed is a bit of a bummer.  Ive been eating out of a bag of fishies, and up until this morning they tasted pretty good.  I don't think I imagined when I got married that it would mean being alone a lot more than I was before I got married.  And I don't think I knew I had the type of strength that I have.  In fact I think I fell apart more at the Doctor's office when David was with me than when I was alone.  Because I could.  Because he was there for me to lean on.  But I have learned how to be the one he leans on as well.  I'm proud of my husband and the work he does to keep not only our family safe but others safe as well.  Somebody has to do it and the fact that he volunteered is amazing to me.  Of course I have my moments where I throw myself a pity party and cry about how I have to go through all this sickness and pain alone and sometimes he whines about the hardship of being in the military but I notice on the days where we care less about our own hardships and more about each others hardships that things go better. I notice that I'm less afraid and he is less stressed.  And we end up strengthening our relationship instead of being angry at our situation.  I'm thankful for all the people who came before us...both our heroes in the scriptures and our heroes in the military and for what they have taught me about being brave and what truly are tough situations. But most of all I'm thankful for what they have taught me about turning to my Heavenly Father and the peace and comfort that can be found.

all the random OCD...

     This blogging thing is getting better I think.  I am starting to grasp that I can pretty much say whatever pops into my head.  I have a tiny band of followers...about 3 I think... so I will try my best to provide entertainment.  Im currently trying to find housing in Provo. It is probably the most annoying thing in the world.  Everything is overpriced and ridiculous and requiring an obnoxious amount of money up front.  Like I just have thousands of spare dollars lying around to secure a contract.  Give me a break!  sheesh.  I dont even REALLY want to live there but I have to finish school.  Its a crime to rip students off like that!  Anyway enough on that rant...just had to get it out.
  On a different random note... David and I practically live in our car...well not really but since he works so much and we only have the one we are constantly driving it to wherever we both need to be.  We decided today to wash it because it has been months since it has been cleaned and we expected some punk child to write "wash me" on the back of it at any second.  So David takes it to the gas station car wash...it turned on, sprayed the car down with suds, and then decided to shut off.  Great!  So since we live in an apartment and our car looked worse than before I decided we should live big and pay 15 dollars to get it vacuumed out and rewashed at the car wash down the street.  so worth it.  And since Outback Steakhouse was right next to it and I knew they were giving out free appetizers to the military in March I suggested my husband take me out.  Aww so sweet of him. I am determined this week to learn how to post pictures on here so hopefully I can start including those. 
   Third random note...I'm in a debate as to whether or not to go to palm springs...to go or not to go.  Sounds like an easy question right?  And it seems Go would be the correct answer but I am having this debate in my head.  Ever since I moved to San Diego I have discovered my OCD is worse than I thought.  The blankets have to be straight before I can do to sleep, snapping fingers bother me, kids running around screaming at church with parents that don't care drives me downright crazy, the music in the car cant be too loud or too soft...oh goodness someone put me in a crazy house now! Time to go straighten the blankets, turn on House, and relax for the night.

finally...sheesh!

So I am now officially a Wallace.  CAARRAAAZZYY!!  New legal name: Marissa Deyon Wallace. They said I could change my middle name while I was there if I wanted to but I like mine just fine. I moved further back in the alphabet though...something I (a child always at the end of the line in school) promised myself I would give my kids a better life but alas I guess I jinxed myself and they will be worse off than I was...unless the class decided to line up in reverse alphabetical order and then they are golden! Not that I am thinking about having kids anytime soon...thought I would throw that out there in case people start getting the wrong ideas from me.  David is still gone and I think this has been the longest week and a day of my life.  I guess it hasnt been made better by the fact that I have been so sick and practically living in the Doctor's office.  It was nice to take a break and spend the weekend in Corona at home.  I needed a little bit of stress taken off.  I have not been doing well this time. I thought I was getting so much better too. darn.  Lucky for me I have the most amazing husband in the world and he sacrificed who knows what at work to be able to call me tonight and let me know that even though he isn't physically here with me that he cares and will always be my shoulder to lean on.  I am so thankful for the way that my Heavenly Father has been taking care of me and helping me mend a life that a year ago I considered to be very broken. I cant wait for our sealing in May because that will be the start of a forever of togetherness.  I love being in love.

groomzilla

Yep you guessed it.  I'm alone again.  And this time for two weeks.  Id like to say I'm sorta glad that I can graduate up to the big time eight month separation but I kinda just feel like I'm getting cheated out of time with him.  I am such a whiner.  I never thought this would be so difficult. I think its something you cant really plan for emotionally.  Im just as thankful for the families that get left at home and support their spouses while they go fight for America's freedoms as I am for the men and women that actually go.  This war has been going on for years now but it was never real because I wasn't personally affected but it has morphed into something totally different for me. I am glued to CNN on a daily basis because anything could turn our life topsy turvy.  Its an interesting way to live thats for sure.  Anyway enough of the grim...wedding plans are coming along.  The sealing day is set.  Invitations are being printed (I think) Trying to decide what style of cake I like (there are waaaayyyy too many) and David is way more high strung and stressed about it than I am. Especially about all of the little details. Im pretty chill on the whole thing.  Its kinda funny to me actually.  Im so OCD about a lot of things and he is so laid back about everything and somehow when wedding planning is being done we switch roles.  Its not the greatest though because we dont know how to handle each other in the reverse roles. I find the best thing to do is just laugh.  In fact im sure if you ask David he would say that too. He loves to make me laugh in what I see as the most inappropriate times but it ends up being perfect because I quickly forget why I was so stressed and mad.  I miss my best buddy. :(

double stuff oreos

So I decided that I dont really like double stuf oreos.  I used to love them. Because when you are a kid all you eat is the cream and not that crunchy chocolate cookie. But I realized today that there is too much cream in the double stuf and they are not chocolatey enough...and everyone knows I love chocolate!  With that out in the open I can move on. David is gone again.  People keep telling me Ill get used to it, but I dont think I ever will.  I try to stay busy. Today I took on watching the most adorable kids for a few hours.  They were cute but also demanding. I dont know how moms do it!  I babysat and then returned home to tons of housework and I was completely wiped out by 5:00. Weird because I had a pretty relaxing weekend.  David was off Friday-Sunday and we basically just caught up on movie watching and napping.  It was actually nice.  Tomorrow I am off to Corona to do some wedding planning and watch the kids while my parents are gone.  Its nice to have people to be around when Im all alone but I miss being at home too. Its comfortable here but really lonely too.  Anyway I have rambled on long enough now Im sure. xoxo

I love to see the temple...and someday has finally come

Once again...go me.  I have not updated in a very long time.  Now I have to remember what we have been doing for the past couple months.  We went on a cruise right before Christmas (if I could figure out how to put pictures on then I would probably put some up) and spent Christmas with my parents in Corona. It was nice to be with the family.  Since then David has been super busy with work.  Im kinda hoping it slows down a little bit soon...even though he didnt go out much in January he still was working a lot.  As of last week I am no longer working due to company cutbacks but I am enjoying just focusing on school. I have to say it is so much easier to get stuff done when I dont have to be at a job that drives me crazy and sucks out all of my energy for 9 hours a day.  I am much happier jobless and we only had to slightly tighten our pocketbooks so I think this whole thing is really a blessing.  I didnt even mention the biggest thing that happened to us recently.  Both David and I got to attend the temple for the first time.  It was such a wonderful and peaceful experience for us and when the temple opens again in two weeks we plan to be there often. David said afterward "I love that I now have a place that is quiet, that is safe, and that is out of this crazy world and I can go there any time to take a break and remember who I am".  I have to say I agree.  Ive never felt so much love and hope in my life and I was so thankful that we were able to be there together and that our family was also there during and after to share something that was really special for us.  We are now looking forward to our sealing in May so that we can be with each other forever.  Our Heavenly Father has already blessed us so much this year and even though we have hard times to come (like an 8 month deployment starting in May) I dont thing we will be able to complain too much because we have truly been blessed.  The gospel is amazing and something that has been so great for our relationship, our marriage, and our individual lives.  And with our newfound knowledge we have a greater sense of our purpose in life and are truly thankful that we know the things we know and get to live the way we live.  It is hard sometimes, but the blessings are so much greater than the trials and we love that we will be able to share our life and progress together forever.  So other than David being gone for the past few days (it does explain the post though since I usually only write when he is gone because I am bored) life is good for us.  We are happy.  And we cant wait to put that sealing stamp on what we have and make it more permanent than it already is. :)