groomzilla

Yep you guessed it.  I'm alone again.  And this time for two weeks.  Id like to say I'm sorta glad that I can graduate up to the big time eight month separation but I kinda just feel like I'm getting cheated out of time with him.  I am such a whiner.  I never thought this would be so difficult. I think its something you cant really plan for emotionally.  Im just as thankful for the families that get left at home and support their spouses while they go fight for America's freedoms as I am for the men and women that actually go.  This war has been going on for years now but it was never real because I wasn't personally affected but it has morphed into something totally different for me. I am glued to CNN on a daily basis because anything could turn our life topsy turvy.  Its an interesting way to live thats for sure.  Anyway enough of the grim...wedding plans are coming along.  The sealing day is set.  Invitations are being printed (I think) Trying to decide what style of cake I like (there are waaaayyyy too many) and David is way more high strung and stressed about it than I am. Especially about all of the little details. Im pretty chill on the whole thing.  Its kinda funny to me actually.  Im so OCD about a lot of things and he is so laid back about everything and somehow when wedding planning is being done we switch roles.  Its not the greatest though because we dont know how to handle each other in the reverse roles. I find the best thing to do is just laugh.  In fact im sure if you ask David he would say that too. He loves to make me laugh in what I see as the most inappropriate times but it ends up being perfect because I quickly forget why I was so stressed and mad.  I miss my best buddy. :(

double stuff oreos

So I decided that I dont really like double stuf oreos.  I used to love them. Because when you are a kid all you eat is the cream and not that crunchy chocolate cookie. But I realized today that there is too much cream in the double stuf and they are not chocolatey enough...and everyone knows I love chocolate!  With that out in the open I can move on. David is gone again.  People keep telling me Ill get used to it, but I dont think I ever will.  I try to stay busy. Today I took on watching the most adorable kids for a few hours.  They were cute but also demanding. I dont know how moms do it!  I babysat and then returned home to tons of housework and I was completely wiped out by 5:00. Weird because I had a pretty relaxing weekend.  David was off Friday-Sunday and we basically just caught up on movie watching and napping.  It was actually nice.  Tomorrow I am off to Corona to do some wedding planning and watch the kids while my parents are gone.  Its nice to have people to be around when Im all alone but I miss being at home too. Its comfortable here but really lonely too.  Anyway I have rambled on long enough now Im sure. xoxo

I love to see the temple...and someday has finally come

Once again...go me.  I have not updated in a very long time.  Now I have to remember what we have been doing for the past couple months.  We went on a cruise right before Christmas (if I could figure out how to put pictures on then I would probably put some up) and spent Christmas with my parents in Corona. It was nice to be with the family.  Since then David has been super busy with work.  Im kinda hoping it slows down a little bit soon...even though he didnt go out much in January he still was working a lot.  As of last week I am no longer working due to company cutbacks but I am enjoying just focusing on school. I have to say it is so much easier to get stuff done when I dont have to be at a job that drives me crazy and sucks out all of my energy for 9 hours a day.  I am much happier jobless and we only had to slightly tighten our pocketbooks so I think this whole thing is really a blessing.  I didnt even mention the biggest thing that happened to us recently.  Both David and I got to attend the temple for the first time.  It was such a wonderful and peaceful experience for us and when the temple opens again in two weeks we plan to be there often. David said afterward "I love that I now have a place that is quiet, that is safe, and that is out of this crazy world and I can go there any time to take a break and remember who I am".  I have to say I agree.  Ive never felt so much love and hope in my life and I was so thankful that we were able to be there together and that our family was also there during and after to share something that was really special for us.  We are now looking forward to our sealing in May so that we can be with each other forever.  Our Heavenly Father has already blessed us so much this year and even though we have hard times to come (like an 8 month deployment starting in May) I dont thing we will be able to complain too much because we have truly been blessed.  The gospel is amazing and something that has been so great for our relationship, our marriage, and our individual lives.  And with our newfound knowledge we have a greater sense of our purpose in life and are truly thankful that we know the things we know and get to live the way we live.  It is hard sometimes, but the blessings are so much greater than the trials and we love that we will be able to share our life and progress together forever.  So other than David being gone for the past few days (it does explain the post though since I usually only write when he is gone because I am bored) life is good for us.  We are happy.  And we cant wait to put that sealing stamp on what we have and make it more permanent than it already is. :)

why we dont have kids...

Id say the last couple days were pretty interesting for us.  Yesterday David and I spent the evening babysitting for a friend of mine.  I was a little bit jealous when the baby girl loved David more than me...and he showed up half way through the night.  We both had a good time but left tired, covered in drool and baby food, and pretty glad we don't have any little ones yet (and pretty convinced we are definitely will not be prepared for a few years yet).  While I was there I got the call I have been waiting for all weekend.  I got into grad school!  Now I just have to figure out how to finish BYU.  They are being a bit difficult with answering my questions and helping me out.  Tonight we spent the evening with the ward missionaries.  And we met the other couple in the ward without kids!  Finally someone to hang out with around here!  Gonna keep this one short.  Goodnight to all 5 people that read this blog. :)

One Big happy Mormon Family

Again its been forever since I got on here but this is progress...David is home (well hes at work right now but hes coming home tonight) and I am still blogging!  Last week Dave ended up having to stay out longer again which is not my favorite thing about his job for sure.  I burned my fingers with a hot glue gun on thursday night and of course immediately started freaking out because I was by myself and had hot clue searing through all the layers of my skin.  When they started bleeding I freaked out even more because I dont like blood.  So I called Aunty Jade...but she is an old lady and goes to sleep at 6 apparently.  So I called the only other person whos number I have in close proximity.  She happened to be in Colorado...great.  But she made a phone call to someone she knew and about fifteen minutes later two men in white shirts and ties that I had never met before knocked on my door.  One, a doctor, brought burn cream and did a brief exam of the damaged area of my hands and then together they gave me a blessing and then left just as fast as they came.  Even though the pain was still extreme I felt so much better.  The comfort of having a ward family that is there for you no matter where you live was so great to feel especially with a husband who has a job that takes him away from home quite often.  Its been over a week since then and the burns are slowly starting to heal. Im gonna have some pretty sweet scars though. And since I was speaking of David being gone a lot we thought it would be nice to have a little friend to keep me company while he is away so we got a kitten.  Her name is Gizmo (from the Goonies) and she is extra tiny.  I think she has a bit of a cold right now (probably because we keep our apartment so cold) so we are taking her to the vet this weekend but other than that she is doing great.  When we first brought her home she whined a lot.  I think she missed her sisters and brother.   Now she is happy most of the time and getting into everything as small kittens usually do.  Last night David and I had the missionaries over for dinner.  I felt so old!  I have never had missionaries over and cooked for them myself in my own home.  It was a good time.  I think this may be the longest thing I have ever written.  I need to start getting some pictures up on here so that is my next goal...to figure out how exactly to do that. :)

I felt a little ridiculous...but quickly got over it...

Wow.  I keep saying I am going to get better at this and I never do.  So lets see...what has occurred since the last post.  I think I only think about this when I am bored and David is out to sea.  So lets start from there.  David has been out quite a bit.  I guess not a ton but in my mind its way too much.  My job keeps getting worse but I am still thankful to have work in such trying times.  David's little brother Spudd was here for a couple weeks before he had to go meet his ship.  We all cant believe he is in the navy and off on deployment now.  Im sure Momma Wallace is having a bit if a rough time with all her babies leaving like this.  Last weekend my cousin Jesica was here to visit as well so all of us went to a Halloween party with a bunch of people David works with.  I must say it was interesting.  We all dressed up which was probably the best part of it. I havent dressed up in awhile.  I felt a little ridiculous but quickly got over it when I saw some of the other people there.  Last week we also went to the temple to do family name baptisms.  It was a great experience.  It was David's first time in the temple and I was happy that he enjoyed it.  I am always amazed by the amount of peace and love that is found there.  Before we started the couple running the baptistry talked to us for a few minutes and one of the things they said that sorta stuck with me was that we were there to do the Lord's work and to make eternal friends.  And since I am a huge believer that one can never have too many friends I was pretty excited about that.  And now I just count down the days to the weekend until I can be with my best friend again.  Everything is much better when he is around.

Time to Update

Ok Ok Ok. Im going to keep up with this blog thing. It has been decided...by me...that I need something to occupy my time. The love of my life is currently out to sea. I havent spoken with him in a few days and its seriously driving me crazy. I even went so far as to get angry at America yesterday. I dont know what im going to do when he is gone for 7 months. Anyway life here is going well. The weekends are always fun and way too short. I finally found a job. I dont love it but its work so Ill do my best. Im trying to find a government job though. They pay better, give all the paid holidays (even columbus day!) and have much better job security. The apartment is slowly getting better. We finally got a table and chairs so now we are on the hunt for a couch. Sister Espinoza gave us some really nice gifts that are so helpful. I practically got teary over the support she was giving. I'll always love my second mom. General Conference last weekend was amazing as usual. David and I spent sunday with my parents. It wasn't as uncomfortable as I thought it would be...in fact I came away from it feeling a whole lot better about a lot of things. I guess all this rambling is really the result of me being bored out of my mind and lonely as heck. If my job wasn't so awful I might be thankful for the extra hours they are making me work this week (I'm hoping they don't even stumble upon my blog). Basically I cant wait for Saturday morning. Ive been dreaming about that big bear hug for nights now.